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The way out of depression is to learn and live the truth that sets us free and it is only found in Christ.  Whether we need the temporary aid of medication, the real answer for permanent healing is still found in the truth of Christ". End quote

Seven years later, I was in another BAD PLACE in my life, this time without God, because I had quit attending church just prior to my husband abandoning me with two children under 7.  This man hid in the mountains of Colorado to avoid paying child support.  Never sent a birthday card, or Christmas present to his kids........still doesn't.  But, I thought my depression could be cured with medication, so once again they put me on the same ones I had been on 7 years previous.

Did they ask how I was supporting myself??? NO.   At that time I was working three jobs, my kids had become latchkey children, I even chose at one point to live with someone I had NO BUSINESS living with because I couldn’t afford to live any other way.  I was suffering from the effects of my own depression, which I believe causes SIN........running, running, running........it's all a blur in my memory.  BUT, the meds seemed to help. (Did I really need this drug then, or did I talk myself into because that is what the Dr. said about seven years??  How powerful is the power of suggestion?)   They made things look brighter, they brought my world back into focus.  They made me think more about me, and after all, that is what today’s world tells me will make me feel better, no?  "You deserve a break today", "If it feels good do it", "Just do it".  How many slogans do we hear on a daily basis that feed self?

As close back as the year we moved here, just 5 years ago, I once again took myself back to a doctor to make me feel better, to escape the overwhelming feeling of despair and blackness.  They put me on Prozac, the anti-depressant of choice now.  After a few weeks on that, I was ready to kill myself. 

I have since read that even though these medications were created to help people, they have unfortunate side effects. They can MAKE you suicidal.  The trick is, you don’t know if you’re the kind of person that reacts that way, until you TAKE the medication.  Trial by error.  That is not the kind of risk I am willing to take again.  When I was totally "out of the woods", I read the list of side effects of Prozac.  It gave me nightmares for a long time.  I cannot believe that I allowed them to let me put that kind of poison in my body.  They are classified a "psycho-tropic" drugs and are nothing less than mind-altering and addictive (even though they TELL you they aren’t).

Please do not think I am totally against meds for mental illness.  I KNOW there are cases where these meds are keeping people alive and productive.  I KNOW there are many forms of mental illness as well as depression.  I have a very close friend who has been on Prozac for YEARS, and I can tell when she is out of her medication.  I have PAID for her drugs, just so she wouldn’t kill her children.  BUT I also know each case is individual and that it is much easier to throw a pill at a problem than for the me to admit I am in sin, because I am not doing things God’s way.

Most or many doctors will not suggest or even mention counseling. It's because if you get yourself straightened out, you won't need meds anymore, OR docs and there goes their paycheck. Seriously, I've read too much that suggests this whole counseling/meds/psychiatrist/role-play/dream-analysis, etc, etc, etc., is nothing but a cyclical scam perpetrated by pharmaceuticals/doctors/hospitals/clinics/politician/lobbyists to make and to continue to make more money.  Pretty sad, and I really don't think it is as simple as that, but I also know if you don't have a sick person, you don't have a need for the vehicle to make them better and that would put many people out of business.

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