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Not wanting to be lazy, I felt like it was my responsibility to redirect some of the "free time" we now had. How foolish I was to not realize that the "foolish woman plucketh down her own house with her own hands".

One of the ways I began to "pluck down my own house" was in the area of over commitment. Many times I told myself that I was overburdening my schedule for God’s honor and glory. I remember a particular time in my life when I did this, and boy, was I kidding myself. Dinner was never on time, let alone on the table. Laundry was usually two or three loads behind. Discipline was a monumental task between the bazillion phone calls and all the trips to and fro in the car. Much was left undone, and there was no consistency in our lives. How does all this chaos add up to glory for God?

Growing weary with the struggle, I argued with God that it was my HUSBAND’S responsibility to ensure consistency in our lives, and he sure wasn’t delivering. I wanted my husband to be more spiritual, I wanted my husband to be the leader in our home, I wanted him to be more responsive to our son and discipline with more consistency, I wanted, I wanted, I wanted.....

In the middle of all this, Satan began slipping in those kinks in my spiritual armor and began telling me that I only needed to worry about myself. I didn’t need to concern myself with others so much, especially my husband. Well, that seemed like a logical train of thought. After all, isn’t God the only one that can really change my husband, regardless of what MY desires are? And if he didn’t change, that just means that he’s not spiritual enough, right? This selfish way of thinking would also help my hectic schedule!

And so I went on defending everything that happened for the next few months.

The first place Satan came to me about was my spare time, what little I had. I was convinced I needed a television, since my husband is a truck driver and was constantly on the road and only home a few nights a week. How in the world was I supposed to survive a long summer with a 5 year old and keep him entertained? He needed a television AND a VCR so he could watch movies as a treat for being a good boy. And besides, they were free if you got them at the library. (Now bear in mind, we did not have a TV or a VCR at the time. I was justifying spending $300.00 plus by saying the movies at the library were FREE!!!!) It never ceases to amaze me what Satan can convince us of.  There are SO many ways that Satan can assist us in "plucking down our houses".  That slimey beast had already bothered me in the area of my spare time. Next, he came to me in the area of my home.

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