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My desire is not to shock you, nor is it to titillate your imagination with my life, but to make you realize that there is nothing that we can’t talk about. If you are burdened or concerned about something, we need to talk about it so write an email, contact this site, etc. If you need someone to pray with you, we need to do that even if by phone. 

Have you ever seen TV shows where someone goes to an AA meeting and starts by saying my name is Laura Linda and I’m an alcoholic? Well, ladies my name is Teddi, and I’m a sinner that is saved by grace. Until early this year I had never told my life story to any one person. Bits and pieces yes... but not everything. 

When God urged me to first share this, I argued with him. I told God I would be too vulnerable if my friends knew all about me. God reminded me that ‘vulnerable’ is hanging naked on a cross. 

I am blessed to have been born into a Christian home. I am the third child of four and the only girl. I don’t remember a time as a child that my family didn’t attend Sunday school and church together.

At the age of five, I asked the Lord Jesus into my heart. I have not always lived for the Lord but I have never had an occasion that I doubted my salvation.

I was tall for my age and began to develop physically at a very early age. I was wearing a bra when I was seven and had begun to menstrate just before I was nine. I have not grown at all since I was eleven.

A friend of my fathers made sexual advances to me well before my teen years and certainly long before I could comprehend the significance and sin involved. I knew I didn’t want him to touch me but I also had no idea how to make him stop. I am thankful that his sin was no more than touching and grabbing but it still left lasting scars on me emotionally.

I began having hormone problems when I was sixteen and had my first of many female surgeries two weeks prior to my seventeenth birthday. I was told at that time that I would never be able to have children. The doctors started me on hormone therapy after my surgery and the medication did help for many years.

I also had a condition that was mis-diagnosed several times but for want of another title they ended up calling it arthritis. Because of the joint/ligament problems I was unable to participate in any sports. My current doctor suspects I had Lyme disease before anyone knew there was such a thing.

After graduating from high school, I attended Western Baptist Bible College at El Cerrito, CA. for two years.

The summer between my two years at college I dated a young man that I had no business dating. He did not want me to go back to Bible College in the fall so he beat me to convince me to stay out of school. Then he raped me to prove how much he loved me.

In the 1960’s no one had heard of date rape. When my parents came and picked me up, they ask what jail he was in and if I was all right but they never asked if he had raped me. Until this year the only people I have told that I was raped are other rape victims that I have counseled.

I was certain that I would meet Mr. Right at college but I didn’t, so after two years I decided that I would help God out by looking for a husband.

I looked in all the wrong places. I was consumed by a desire to be married and safe. During the following years I made no pretext of living a Christian life yet I always knew I was saved. I would come home ashamed and disillusioned to cry myself to sleep.

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